Hope this is the Pit

Different people plays different roles in my life, creating impacts leaving learning experiences to be picked up. I didn't have the urge to change my currents, but I'm more than willing to master the new ones. I know what I do wish to expect and what's not, I don't really entertain critism. Protraying an outwardly strong expression, I'm merely a rose withering by the burnt land. My pride is all I had to forgo, but that intention was never brought upon. I'd have exchanged for that respect with anything I owe, returning back to where I once stand tall, watching people stooping low. It's honey to my eyes.

I have nothing to lose no more, I had lost it all. Defeated.

-Petite Fille-

Existance of thy Beauty

Every place that someone ever brings me to for the first time, I secure this very moment that he/she is the owner of it. Subsequently, my next visits to that place doesn't appear to be that beautiful any longer. Because the owner isn't there any longer, the place looks simply like any other abandoned areas. Am I the only one feeling that? Or is that what anyone feels?

Was planning for a sleepy afternoon but the next message that came made me jumped outta the bed, off to the bathroom.

Guardian Angel

Thanks for the lovely surprise! Little did I expected you to go down town that fast, and I was merely mentioning it. Still lied to me you're at home huh? Saying lil' sister and daddy were at the screens, I actually took it for real! Thanks for the aloe vera! You're really lame! Everything I said became cold jokes essentials for you! HOW LAME CAN YOU GET?!

-Petite Fille-

Silent Exuberance

Incidents around had somehow, elevated me to a higher level of understanding for peeps around me. It could just be a simple action that caught none eyes, but it had rekindled a warmth in me towards friendships. Perhaps such insignificant gestures didn't catch my attention then, I must have missed out several beauties in life. At a point of my life, I witnessed the struggle for one's interests among my peers. I was very much convinced that society is all about status and one's achievements, as long as you're at the peak of your profession, it makes you king. As time moves on, I continue observing people around me. I realised I was wrong, that mentality builds up a strong barrier to my acceptance of trustworthy pillars.

Dinner was really wondeful, I experienced something more than merely just filling up my tummy. I have got a list here.

Xue Ling - Thanks for standing up the whole night serving us, bet those legs are aching now?

Eugene - Thanks for serving me, despite those nasty hot oil. Thanks for offering me that steak while you chewed on the rib bones and for cracking open that clam!

Tze Hao - Thanks for finishing the plate of prawns that I peeled for half an hour though you got so sick of it.

Fiona - Thanks for serving me, too! But I really wondered how those oil got into your eyes, you were wearing your glasses!

Jun Xiang - Thanks for finishing up the prawns, too!

Wei Jian - Thanks for your entertainments, was really warm then. Hah..

Wei Ting - Thanks for your compliments about me peeling prawn shells!

Qin Zhen - Thanks for offering me those pork which ain't nice! You did a good job piling up my plate!

Majority I mentioned here are from my table, sorry for those who sat too far away! :X

-Petite Fille-

Crimson. Pink. Blossoms.

Amidst the souls, I own all fame
I'd have rose amongst them, but not in thee
My never creasing grace of obsession
Etched in me is boned with undying devotion
Nerved and blooded with the unspoken passion
What it protrayed now, is merely a tell tale
Either, illustrate me a sheer bliss
Leaving tinge of everlasting aroma to haunt me with love
Or to exagerate that enternal sparkle of burning stones?
Signal me shalt this be spilling through my factual world
By the seconds, it withers my days in dormant soliloquy

Back to my usual morning rush, to complete 7 chapters today, I accomplished 6. At my every arrival to the regional library, I was greeted by security guards at the entrance. Not once, I see them barely with uniforms, always in those wind breakers without fail. The librarian in their usual attire, roaming around freely. Are they polar bears? Everyone in the library is fidgeting and snuggling into their cardigans and sweaters, can't they just adjust the temperature? It's not that they're selling frozen products that we need a freezer to preserve them. Since when do books adviced us to place them under a temperature of four degrees and below? That's for my fresh milk.

Two more days to go.

-Petite Fille-

My Life

Past entries of my previous blog were all gone, am I but destined not to have records of my life? I doubt I'd enjoy repeating what I wrote intially over at my old blog today, just moving on with this.

Mugging and more mugging, this is my daily routine, but that's not creating the least bit of hook. Take a peep into my family instead!

Lil' brother
Was cracking cold jokes with him earlier on, still with that childishly dramatic me I posed years back, he isn't that little as I pressumed anymore. Changes both academically and character wise, I seemed to have lag way back behind him. Physically wise, lucky me that it's not time yet. Maths assignment he brought back today was on polynomial, I nearly fainted. That topic was still so fresh in those rusty cells of mine, and he's picking that up now. It was my secondary three topic! Life is rushing me real hard, even a peek at his notes makes me stress.

Mummy
Lately been getting much of a singlish in Mummy's lines, the 'meh's and the 'leh's. I laughed so hard that she decided to stop conversing with me for the time being, I don't really mean it. Still, I would continue laughing at her until she speaks the perfect language to me.

Daddy
Seemingly free these days, early get offs benefits me so. Mummy loves it hell lots, I managed to get away from her nags due to love sick. Love ya hell lots, Daddy!

So much for this happy family of mine, home sweet home always.

Guardian Angel
Just had his second paper today, guess he's dead tired. Lucky I told him not to make up today otherwise he gonna be late. I think he still treats me like a guy, he can't sweet talk to me at all. Still nagging through my each and every day, I really wonder when will he stop nagging. In fact, I see him more of a she then a he, he tugs my sleeve to ask for the addy of this blog! He went out with his friend and abandoned me today! How mean of him! My guardian angel is a big bully, I swear! Don't love him anymore! Hmph!

Classmates
Coming to the end of the semester soon, it's parting time. Had my experience of bonding between these fun loving individuals in my class, and would like to send my gratitude to those who walked with me this academic year! Without your guidance, I wouldn't have passed my tests. Without your assignments, I wouldn't have any other means to produce my tutorials. Hee.. Love ya, guys!

-Petite Fille-